if there's a prize for rotten judgement, i guess i've already won that.

so much for being proud of myself for being strong.

the past week has been the longest week ever.
uni timetable packed to the max.
perhaps that's why i was taking it ok so far.
truth is i didnt have the time and energy to even think about it.
coming back here and all.

i miss my family so much.
to a point i'm scared to call them cos i think i wont be able to control myself when i hear them ask me if i'm ok.

back to this place with obligations, expectations and lack of freedom.
welcome back to melbourne, shufen.

at least friends are here to make it teeny bit better. what would i do without them?

random pics from home.

do you know what's worth fighting for?

why is it that before i do something,
and sometimes even as i'm doing it..
it feels perfectly fine.
but right after mission accomplished,
i'd realise how idiotic i'm being.
again.

boo.

photos shall be added in due course. updated

8th january.

met up with jan and alex for dinner

hokkien mee, watan hor, and super duper yummy fried chicken.

then watched my sister's keeper while eating supper, snowy ice from 100yen shop in ss2. the mango flavoured one was yums.

9th jan.

family movie outing with 6 of my fav people.
we woke up super duper early to get to the cinema to get our tickets for Sherlock Holmes.
ate breakie at Dragon-i like zombies. dad over-ordered like usual.
been ages since we went out as a family, just the 7 of us.

everyone seems to enjoy the movie. i, the least perhaps. maybe i was too sleepy. the movie was okay i guess. kit loved it alot, keep commenting on how funny and how he loves the character during the movie. lols.,

dinner with shyyi, lian, dee, and jmin. =)

dinner was good. pork and rainbow trout and sausages.. at.. er er er. (oh yea, bavarian bierhaus!) some belgium beer place.

then, dessert at chocolate and cocktails at the laundry.

love my gurls to the max.

found my car battery-less at the end of the night. spend almost an hour in a super stuffed carpark trying to find out what we could do.

saved by a security guard and yi's car. =)

what a way to end the night. thanks, peeps.

10th jan.

woke up at 9am to go market with mum.

then went to the da vinci- a genius exhibition at the national science centre. it was pretty cool, seeing his work and art. but i think the exhibition could have been much better. they didnt display much of his work. only the Mona Lisa was emphasized. boo, malaysia.

some interesting war invention. hmmmm...

meet up with the melb peeps for dinner at full house.
for some reason, all our food was pretty cold when it came. and kelly's sandwich even had plastic bits in it. wth.

spaghetti.

interesting conversation with the guys at paddington house of pancakes after the girls left. LOLOL!!!

i guess we'll always be stuck as friends

27th december 2009. i think. i know it's overdue but that day was so much fun it'd be wrong not to write something on my blog about it..

we planned, we came, we met up, we eat, we laughed, and took tons of pics.

all pics were taken by the peeps with pro cameras. and these ones are stolen from facebook.

dinner was at seoul garden, ioi mall. we had korean bbq buffet. food was yummy and plentiful. i think most of us left the place feeling bloated.

then we headed to woan ni's place. =) pretty new home.

we played stupid games. again. LOL..

girls pic

guys pic

group pic before it went chaotic.

chaos

it's amazing how all of us have changed so much, but yet in many ways still the same old people.

cheers!!! =)

lunch at south sea.

true to their slogan, alive and kickin' (TM).. i've never seen such huge sea creatures to be eaten under one roof before.

sad thing is, all of them were waiting to be eaten. =(

i realised most of them are important from australia. coolies.

i liked the place. even the toilet sign was cute.

food was not too bad. forgot to snap pics of them.. boo me.

when i was young i listened to the radio..

that was the place i made the earliest memories of my own childhood,
with an elderly couple whom sheltered me with love and care.


he took me on my 1st motorbike ride,
bought me interesting kiddy gifts,
scolded me when i was naughty,
and made me hand made toys.


she sang to me as i fell aslp,
taught me to read and write,
she'd gave me almost everything i wanted,
and i'd tag along when she went on her evening walks to meet up with friends.


20 years down the road,
now each room brings back a different memory to me,
each picture on the wall tells me a different story.
and as my feet step on the thumping wooden floor,
i feel little again.

except this time, the furniture seemed to have shrunk,
the rooms seemed smaller than it used to be,
and everything seemed just a little bit older.


i've always loved looking out the windows,
i love the air slowly hitting on my cheeks.
but so many things have changed over the years..
the rows of coconut trees are no longer visible, leaving only a few left standing.
the poultry barn burnt down,
and some of the biggest trees chopped away.

ever since i can remember,
leaving that place have always made me cry.


today, they saw wild boars.
mama boar bringing baby boars out looking for food.
i missed that sight.


i miss sitting on his lap while watching tv,
i miss hugging him with all my strength.
but i guess when u grow older there are things u cant stop from changing.


i know he feels it whenever someone thinks he is speaking nonsense,
but his words come from his heart
and he really do want the best for all of us.
he probably doesnt know how sad i feel to see him suffer like this,
and there's ntg much we can do.


i guess all we can do it be patient,
and listen.


the most random pics.

jambu air from grandma's jambu tree =)

grandpa made this wooden stool for us when we were too short to sit on normal chairs at the dining table.

it also had many other random uses. =P

already gone.

she said, i'm sad.
and i was lost for words.

i suck at consoling people. even the ones i put closest to my heart.